First date, check

I went out with Will on Sunday. I tried to set up a date on Friday, but he was busy. We tried Saturday but he was at a birthday party, and stayed too late for there to be any time left in the evening. So Sunday it was.

For a first date (which could mean the first date with Will, or my first date with anyone, ever) it went pretty well. We kissed some, but nothing more. Movie and cuddling and sleeping together. Yes, I just implied kissing is more significant than sleeping in bed together. We spent a total of (at most) 5 minutes kissing and 10 hours (yeah, we're lazy) sleeping together, so I'm not totally crazy there.

I have to confess, I thought he would move a little faster. I don't know whether he's going slowly for my benefit (he knows I'm freshly out of the closet and haven't had any experience yet) or whether he's just not the fast-moving player I thought he was. Either way, I think I like it. I was stressed out before the date about how far we'd go and whether I'd be okay with it, but once I was on the date, I was comfortable with everything we did. I was never nervous—well, except when we walked into his bedroom and he introduced his bed as being "where the magic happens."

I have a strange duality going. On the one hand, I'm 25 and I've just gone on a date for the first time in my life. Other people my age, even gay people, are a lot more experienced at this than I am.

On the other hand, I have 25 years of experience in other social situations, and I know how to handle myself. I know when to be genuinely worried about something, and when to brush off my anticipation and anxiety and just go for it. It gives me a lot of confidence. I know that if things go poorly and I need to slow down, or yell "Stop!", I can do it, because I have done it in other situations.

Oh right, the boy. I don't know when we'll meet up again. I don't really know what kind of hang-out things we could do together, but man would I like to sleep over again. I don't really see a limit to how often I could sleep with someone, as long as it doesn't interfere with work and school.